Olympic Fever | Just as life got better from wed night's epic concert by the lovely feist, i have succumbed to my immune system shutting down - without asking for my permission. I guess i shouldn't have spent all of my energy that night - but it was worth it. This olympic fever is not just a saying. That's probably why there's so many gigantic Cold-Fx blown-up pill container advertisements at every olympic site you go to. Ironically, i took a picture beside it this week.

Being sick really brings the worst out of me. I'm cursing at why i have such a huge window in my bedroom. All that sunshine, teasing and laughing at me while i lay in my bed. But, it does give me a chance to finally open up all those novels i have stacked beside my bed, untouched. The Potato Peel Pie Society is doing me some good so far. I think the Memory Keeper's Daughter may be a bit dark for my current mood right now. I don't need more darkness in my life. You've already made me miss OLP last night. And you're making it really difficult for me to go on my beloved peaceful, reflective walks down by the waters.

Instead, with all this time to myself, you're making me recall bad memories and regrets. With the Olympics playing in the background, all i can think of is how those athletes are so strong and never gave up on their dreams. Which made me feel miserable since it reminds me of how i gave up on my sport. Now that years have past and i have more time to think, its become a blur. I don't remember how i felt, and why i decided to give up. I guess i've chosen to ignore it all this time. That's probably why you never see me watching women's basketball. Or that every time I watch or hear about women's basketball, it makes me feel uncomfortable, and uneasy in a way that I cannot describe. I guess that's one downfall of being passionate about something, it really hurts when it disappoints you.

Wow. That was one dark entry. May my immune system behave itself so people will not have to read such miserable blogs. Ironically, I've also shared a Chinese greeting earlier to everyone about 'wishing for good health'. I guess this doesn't apply to the greeter.